Dad discharge today, but he needs to do a minor op on next week. So i'll skip my classes again on next week. Hopefully he'll fine.

streamyx sucks recently [ i think]. i hard to surf anything thru net , i hard to download movies and songs thru it too. I wonder why streamyx always down . ZZ.....

Bad things, always happen around me recently.

Good things, always the thing that i cant touch.
Happy is a word for me which can cheer me up every moment

Friends is a people who always support me.

Family is a 'jewel' for me which is extinctin this world. [ only my family ].

Money , is a thing which i wanted all the time, and always spend on nth.

Sad, is the "1 who " always makes me cry recently.

Studies, which i almost forget bout it lately.

School, is a place where i fear the most now.

Hospital, can b 2nd my home now.

Nurse, is the best fren for me now !

Doc is the 1 who always guide me to the bright side.

Last but not least,

Thankyou for always support me and for those who pray for my dad 1 , i'm sincerely to thankyou of what u did to us.

God will bless u and my dad too.

I love a reality show recently, which showin / not show in mtv. They r so cool, talented , and handsome/pretty. They r good in dance and the songs they play in this show r so nice. This reality show name = dance life, who produce by Jennifer Lopez.

They r Nolan, Celestina, Jersey, Blake, Staci and Kenny.

After many things happen in me , i realise that Life is so miserable but i will still goin on until the end of my life.

Trust, Belief, Love, Health and so on , r so important for me now , but the 'trust' for frenz , i dont think i'll put 100% in it anymore.

*Find a new way to continue my life*

by Young Love.

당신은 이 세계에 있는 나쁜 사람이다! 당신은 결코 무슨 사람들이 당신에게 한 평가하지 않는다. 얼마나 불구 사람! 당신은 나가 이제까지 만나는 바보이다

After see the aunt who share a room with us has went back to her hometown, i quickly asked my dad what did he feel when seeing ppl go back ? He told, well its nth . its normal.

Today i read my dad's report again. He's juandice din get better and albumin as well. Only thing he's doin better is his blood. The doc said his blood fr 20 drop to 16.5 , which is a good sign, n if its continue until drop to 12. It'll b much better for him n prove that his liver is functioning or processing.

Even though is tired for me to taking care of him in these days, but i still feel happy with it because i can feel my dad is beside me now and breathing every minute and happy to see he's getting more active or fresh den a day to a day. I can even sacrifice my time to accompany him.

Actually i'm not feeling well since last week. I've vomitted again n again after finish my food. At first i tot mayb i'm too stress , but now i dont think so. I sneeze, i vomit, i stomachache and headache too. But all these sickness r cant compare to my dad 1 , so i don't want to tell my dad 1st n my mom either.

If u guys noe got any medicine can cure the jaundice, please let me know k? i would like to give it a try better den let my dad stay in hospital for nothing.

I miss my dad after step out of the room. I was overnite at there yesterday to take care of him. I actually request to my mom that i want to over nite tonite again, but mom said bro wanna take care so, i'll overnite again on tmr

The feeling of meeting up with programme director, miss josephine is really surprise me. I was tot it might b my attendance cz i've skipped classes for 4 days in 2 subjects.But, surprisingly, Miss josephine was asked and concerned bout our cgpa. she's really cool and understanding i think ?

I skipped class today because i don't hv the mood to study. So i went to hospital with my mom to visit my dad. As usual, my dad still like dat but fr my view, he's getting better although his jaundice n albumin still not that good yet.

Everytime after i came back from hospital, i feel very tired and wanna cry. I dunno y , mayb i too miss my dad and hope he come back to us 1 day with an healthy body.

Oh I know what's the feel during earthquake. I was stand beside my dad , n suddenly i feel that my body is shaking. I was tot i'm dreaming , but no ! i can feel that and its strong too ! After few minutes, i headache. Its freaking pain . Mayb earthquake cause it.

Besides that, i want to thank to my all helpian frenz ,some of my classmates and my besties. Without 'em, i dont think i can go thru all this time. Its really hard to go thru ! U will never know how hard is that n u'll feel u wanna commite suicide just of that. But, once u think of ur family n those who frenz who always gv u a support, u'll stay strong again. But trust me, this feeling will not long. U hv to stay strong on urself every single seconds, stay positive in every single minutes and u hv to b happy everytime eventhough there're a lot of unhappy things happen to u.

Anyways, my dad will goin to do another check up, x-ray and ultra sound. Hopefully is a good result and i'm goin to meet sumone tmr =.=.

can c there r 2 rainbows ?

I do not hv any mood to blog but, i cant find a way to express my feeling !! so i choose 'blog' back to express it.

b4 i went to college today, i saw 2 rainbows. I dunno is consider good luck or not cz the rainbows r exactly in front of me and the rainbows r so big !! and beautiful. so, i told myself , today will b a nice day for me.

& I skipped 2 classes today [ ma and poe ] to accompany my mom n dad to hospital. Another reason y i wanna go there because i wanna c my dad's report.

Blood test is out and we've been waiting at there around 1 hour. Finally doc called us and all of us were so nervous cz of the report.

Doc said, his albumin is not that good, his jaundice still high, got "fatique liver"<-- if i'm not mistaken, so he need to admit to hospital tomorrow.

ADMIT to hospital <-- is terrified me because my dad dont like to stay there and he feel he's not goin to recover if he continue stay there.

But, from our view, he's getting better because on last week, we went to private hospital to do some blood test and the report is worse den this. which means, today report is better den the previous 1.

cz of the doctor dunno wat happen on last week, so fr his view, he need to admit. Well is good for him to admit cz at least got doc to observe him.

n i dunno y i'm so moody now. Happy cz of the report but unhappy after heard he need to admit.

anyways, i wont stop to pray for him until he's recover 1 day !!!

Today is another hard day for me to pass. I was sitting alone when i'm in the class, i was eating alone when i'm hving my lunch. And, yes i still do not hv any group to do my assignment too.But, here's a bunch of girls and boy come to me here. They are yi ying, alice, donovan, jesslyn, voon voon, patricia, eu jean and phui yinn. They sit with me to have lunch. I noe me n them got conflict b4, but they r so nice to me. I'm so regret wat did i did on the past to them. I eventually regret y i wanna treat them like that on last sem.

Friends r hard to find , really. Tell the truth, Friends can tolerate and love u watever u do. They do not mind wat behavior u hv , they will just love u for who u r. <-- quoted by my korean fren, an ajumma [ kelly ]

After get home, mom was cried to me again. Once again, i cant control my tears. She told me wat happen to my dad and wat did the doctor said. But after i cry, i told her,

: no matter how we hv to stay strong and stay positive ! Daddy still need our help and he's getting better n better [ from my view]

After happened a lot of things, i found that friends r important and family more important. As i mention before, friends can tolerate wat u did and family can support u all the time !

well i dunno i've got an assignment not yet do n i tot i was finish d !! until went to read the bulletin board what winnie has post , only i realise i still got 1 not yet do n the due date is tmr [ dunno yet ].

I go n ask my frenz , whether the assignment is due on tmr or not. But everyone give me the same answer, which is better done it , in case she wants it tmr.

So, i search the info thru net , n quickly done it b4 7.30pm. unfortunately, i din finish it b4 7.30pm. and i decided to stop it.

y 7.30pm ? because i wanna watch high school musical 2. ah ha ! funny huh ! but well, i watch till half, den i go back to my room to continue my work.

do n do n do, search n search n search

finally i finish it !! and its only 9 paragraph, hopes MISS T wont angry !! hehe

yea, hair spray is goin to premier soon ! i tell u dis movie, is nice, n i spotted it when i was watching the E! the nikki is cute inside there and the john trovolta ! omg, he's so hilarious. so i cant wait to watch it !

n hopefully my dad will get well soon. I pray a lots for him just, to let him go thru all the sickness ! n tuesday is his check-up day !!! i really hope the results will b positive ~! or MUST B positive !!!

God ! please !

There's a lot of bad things happen to me recently, which i dont want it happen anymore.
friends, family, studies , etc , will kill me 1 by 1.

Friends = Friends r ez for u to find, but not ez for u to find the 1 who's really understand u and b there for u anytime.

Family = family is always in ur heart, no matter wat happen to u. They wont leave u alone to face all the problems.

Studies = Without studies, u cant find good job in the future.

Experience = If u dont hv any experience in everything, such as wash dishes, u will very hard to continue ur life in the future

Love = Love is a beautiful word for all of us, and it might b the worst word for all of us too. Sumtimes love is hard to find, sometimes love is not. We hv to depends on our faith.

I was planning to change to another college after this foundation and my family might move to penang too. If this will happen, i will miss everything happen in kl, even though is bad n good.

[wat i say on the above, is based on my own opinion, n no offence . thankyou.]

I received a bad news just now from my mom. Mom told me, Doctor said my dad will not recover, ask us to prepare , and my mom was crying. I dont even noe how to console her. I keep ask my mom, aren't doc said he'll recover soon ? but my mom said no .

I dunno wat happen to me lately. The bad lucks keep surrounding me , and i'm so tired of all these stuffs. I tried to ask myself to do not give up once n once again. But at this time, i cant. I just dunno wat can i do now. how much i hope dat my dad will keep continue his life and live with us, how much i hope that GOD will hear wat i ask and please to the god to do.

i do not mind god take my life immediately or anything, as long as my dad can recover,. If can, please exchange my life with my dad.

I can not control my tears now , and it keep coming out from my eyes. My mom either. I noe she's feel very down now and i noe my dad noe how bad is his situation now. I just dunno wat can i do for him. We're come from an average family , and we're not that rich as u think us. If my dad pass away like dis, who will take care of the whole family ? all of us still young ! especially my sis . I do not want her to lose a daddy in such an age.

All i want to do now is ... i pray to the god , i want my daddy continue his life and b happy forever.

if god really exist, den please , exchange my life with him. I do not mind cz i kinda hate my life now.

ok. something happen to me today, and my tears off cz of dis.

i remember , i told myself to do not let dis happen again after that incident , but well, i cant control all of these. N yes, it happen !

i question myself again n again , did i did something wrong ?

but, no1 is perfect !

fine, i dunno wat i'm talkin bout now.

no more frenz or frenz forever, is up to u guys.

dis is might b the end of our friendship, but i hv to say, i'm gald to hv u guys as my besties b4 in my entire life.

Dear fucker anonymous,

Well, i dont mind u to come n comment me. But i do mind u comment on my own language. Wat i can tell u is, the purpose i create this blog, is not for U to read it, and others as well ! I dont even pay u a single cent to come n read my blog, n comment how bad is my grammar in english !

I do not need u or anyone of u to understand my blog ! This is my blog, not URS blog ! As my title show, Me and my the only weirdest blog ! Dont u c dat ? I bet u dont, cz u've told me in the past comment which i already deleted, that my english is hurting ur eyes. So i bet u're blind now.
Let me explain to u, ME and my the only weirdest blog means I'm the only 1 who understand wat i'm writing, and i'm the only 1 who understand wat i'm saying !

Oh yea , i did reply u dat i nvr admit i'm not stupid rite ? So thankyou for saying me i'm the stupidest soul u ever encountered. once again, thankyou for 'praising' me that, fucker ^^.

Thankyou so much. U fucking ugly idiot bloody pervert , so call , BA POK a.k.a Aho !

Regards,
ME !

I

JUST
HATE
YOU

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DONT

COMMENT

ME

IF

YOU

DUNNO

ME !

FUCK OFF !

i'm Seriously mad to the 1 who dropped me the fucking idiot message.

I'm goin to tell u that, i create this blog, is not for U to read. I create it because i wants it and i'm the 1 who read it !

My english bad or not, is non of ur business !! Oh YEA, Its hurting ur eyes ? really? den go n c a specialist. hm... I pity to the specialist if u go n c him/her, cz his/her eyes will hurt too if they c ur fucking ugly idiot bloody pervert 's face.

If u dont like my blog, den just fuck off !

i didnt pay u to come here n comment me !

FUCK U.

I'm little tired once i reach my beautiful home, in kl.

Well, penang trip aint that bad.

And,

i drunk, & i did sth which is out of my control.

Seriously, this is the first time i get drunk. =.=. I understand n i noe wat i'm doin when i was drunk, but i just cant control myself !!

According to steven, jess n 'Another me', i was yelled, screamed, threw pencil to sin and cried badly. ... <-- this is so not truth !!! i aint that kind of person !!!

oh i do remember wat i told steven when i was drunk.

Y should i tell u all these stuffs ? u r not my fren and not close to me ! why should

i ?

"These stuffs" i mean is i told everything to steven, including my problems, my family 1 , n so on.

I noe this is hurt , but i dunno y =.=.n i feel guilty =.=.

So, i get a punishment for the next day

which is i had a very very serious headache. I do not hv the mood to shop , serious 1 ! after someone bought me the fav gap jacket,[ thankyou so much n i'll appreciate it] i went back to hotel to rest.

ZZZZ.. first time get drunk, n my bad side had shown to jess n steven =.=.

It's so shameful !

S.H.A.M.E.F.U.L.

sigh. watever.. its over d rite?

Hopefully i wont b like dis when i drink next time. XD

* think i wont b on9 these days cz i hv sth to do and think , to calm or cool myself down.

dont ask me why and plz no sms n msg me ! until i on9 ! dont worry, i'll be fine