i will b goin to penang with sin, jess and steven, very soon. and, yes, is on tomorrow ! i cant wait for it.

Honestly, i dont feel like goin to there. I dunno why . Mayb i'm worry bout my dad's condition , mayb i'm feel bore .

Anyways, i hope this trip will b a fun trip and everyone can enjoy & hv fun in every single moment !

so, penang, here i come !

I b a good daughter today, to CLEAN UP MY BOOK SHELF.

yea. my book shelf. lolz

luckily, i clean if not, the number of antz will rapidly increase.

Why i will clean it up ?

bcz of nth to do ?

bcz my bookshelf too messy ?

bcz mom's nag ?

N.A.H

I clean my book shelf bcz... i wanna read those manga i bought last time >.<

Anyways, read back those manga, makes me think of the time i read all of these.

When i was 15 to 16 , i'm soo in love with those manga, like card captor sakura n so on=.=.

i even crazy to go to kinokuniya book shop to buy 1 , which is cost me RM 12.27.

lolz u might think i'm crazy y i'll go there just to buy the expensive manga.

what-to-do ?

i just dunno y, i would like to go there just to buy an expensive manga.

not bcz i'm rich... mayb cz... i like the environment there n the mangas there r better than others?lolz

* its left 2 days to go to penang.

waa what kind of fish is dat.. zzz. n i copy it when i was reading ppl's blog. Its disgusted me. for more information, u can click on this link :

http://www.carolinafishtalk.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=73

beside this, i found another 1, which is more disgusted me n a photographer took the pic .

Is this a fish ?

yes , it is a fish !

a fish who come fr a deep sea after the tsunami .

http://www.amonline.net.au/FISHES/about/fieldwork/norfanz/psychrol2.htm

hmm. as usual, i stay at home the whole day and on9-ing. That's all !

actually i can go out , but i just feel lazy.

Lazy to walk out fr my room, lazy to walk out fr my house. I just feel ............................. lazy.

yesterday, my family n i except my dad, went for blood test. Bro n sista have to took twice ; me n my mom just once. They hv to took twice because they're not enough blood.

The moment when the needle was 'touch' my skin, i think of when i was admit to hospital. Hospital is scary when they wanna take ur blood to test [ blood test ]. Cz they can give u any lame reasons when they really lost ur blood tube, or mixing around ur blood with others. I faced it b4 ! i took twice within an hour. its scary but, i use to it.. hehe

yea. i cant wait to go to penang ! i will shop a lotz at there n meet my 'old crazy peeps.

weeeeee.. went to jogoya to celebrate sin's birthday and had our late lunch today. All of us were so excited b4 get into the restaurant to had our late lunch . After having few plates and especially the 'xiu loong bao' . we really really enjoy our late lunch today over there.

this is the place we went
the dessert which took by jess n sin.

dunno wat soup is that =.=

After finish our lunch, we decided to take some pic n camwhore ! lolz Sin [ the birthday girl] n jess

sin n i.

von, sin, jess

us again [ took when we're goin down to LV shop with escalator ]

After had our lunch at there, we went to klcc to shop ! weeee.. well the first shop we shop is GAP ! aihz. sad to say, my pinky GAP shirt, which cost RM 239.00 , is finish ! no more ! OMG ! i wantedt to buy soo long d after i 'crush' on it in penang, QB mall ! but now.. aihz the chance i buy it now is getting lower n lower ! aihz, who can buy me the jacket laa. i'm soo in-love-with the jacket !

so, i take 1 tube top, 1 mini skirt n 1 white dress to 'release' my anger cz i cant c the jacket i want

After shop in gap, we went to zara again, to window shop again.

Me in the fitting room

sin n jess. =.=

After zara, went to isetan again to c got any nice purse to buy or not. But, NO 1 ! aihzz so sad.. nvm. we went back to gap again. to camwhore? lmao

sin [ ur mouth .. lolz ], jess n i

previous hair style [ ahem, can c my super curly hair? ]

* current hair *

Yesterday really is a sad day for me, so i decided to cut short my hair today to release my 'sadness' . I asked the hair styler to cut a new style for me, n c which style is suit for me.

After an hour, my hair done ! n i c my hair.. zzzzzzzzzzzz its the style i had when i'm in high school. So, i asked him and he told me dat

aiya, u suit with these kind of hair style ma. Aihx what to do...

I feel like wanna whack him after heard it , but mom says not bad overall. Bro said i looks younger den b4. [ sad to say, i looks younger den b4, which means i dont look like a 19 years old girl ! ] .

N, we're goin to celebrate sin's birthday tomorrow. Hopes we can enjoy nicely and forget every sad things !

Life is soo.... unpredictable. U'll nvr noe wat will happen to u on next second

aihz.. tot everything is fine after the 'incident', but seems like not i want and i tot. It's back !

dad's condition is fr good to bad now. Doc said he's in serious condition. jess' health got problem either. N these things r happen in 1 day , just right after my exam and my 1st day of holiday !

I tot i can enjoy it , but.. no.. it is not although is a short term holz for me. I cant enjoy it nicely. I just cant !

Aihz. i cant do anything now for both of 'em. I wish i noe some magic, just like harry potter , so i can save their lives. Unfortunately, i aint.

Wat i can do now is, try my best to do some research on the sickness n c got anything to cure or not.

I really hopes God will bless 'em and let them live longer !!! i bliv god is exist and i bliv god will help 'em cz they r not a bad person.

Finally. Finally~~~ exams is over !!!!! wow... I read n read the same notes in these days, burn the midnite oil summore, n now ! finally. its over !~~ hooray ~~~

Btw, i still hope i can get good grades in it .. cz i dont want to retake !! dis is wat i hope la.. Anyways. good lucks to my classmates too.

*FICM ROCKS*

Ok. den i'm going to cut short my hair.. on tomorrow !

How short is dat ? i dunno.. i might cut till shoulder, or cut a bit n perm it too. I hv no idea ! bt i noe i'm goin to cut it tmr !

*excited*

N

i've changed my blogskin. lolz.

I'm sad when i c my mid term result of MMH. its really out of my expected. I tot i'm doin well in the mcq there, but who noes,... sigh.

I really need to work hard on my finals to score well . I hopes i can pass in it.

Besides,

i'm stress recently.

I'm stress for nth. I dunno why.

I just stress for those things who i really not to worry on it.

I noe, i can dont worry bout it.

But,

i just dunno myself.

ok. good news ! dad is discharge today. Its happy rite? yeaa. it is. But sad to say, i'm not in happy mood too. My mood is like swinging in the sky ~ .

Why ?

because my finals is on next week, n i'm not prepare yet ! cool isnt it ? lolz. well, i'm sooo busy recently n lack of sleep =.=. Cz i need to help my mom to take care of my dad . I even bring my notes to hsopital to read, but .. lolz yea, unsucced .

anyway. hopes all of my classmate can score well in it. Including me of coz, but got excluding 1 ! . the psycho of coz ! lolz !

I'm SO TIREDDDD in THESE DAYS !!! i lack of sleep, i rush to hospital everyday, i visit my dad everyday. I even do my own report too, eg : my dad's b/p, his temperature , etc.

I observe him every single minute, i bring him go out to walk, i talk to him, n so on. My mom says i'm a 'private doc' of my dad, who is FOC 1.

I learnt all the doc stuff within 2 days, well not all la. just certain basic things, like the b/p n the report. The way they do the report, is kinda messy, but wat dyu expect? lolz cz the writting is messy , which known as doctor writting.

Its kinda tired la, cz lack of sleep everyday, but its worth rite ?! for my dad.. i really hopes he can discharge soon ! N i wonder y the DR SS TAN wants to 'keep' him ?! i mean she alrady observe him around 1 week ++ , but is there not enough for her to observe him ?!

swt ~~~~

Aihz.. aihz aihz. i'm soooooo freaking tired in these days ! After school, straight go to hospital just to visit my dad , let my mom go back to rest.

I'm soo tired of myself d. i just dunno wat can i do , to built up myself.

My dad is another stubborn person for me. Wat we ask him to do not do when he's in ICU, think he forgotten d , n now starting to eat those oily food back, although he's in usual wad.

Besides, wat he already promise us, think he oso forgotten . He told me, doc said he can eat anything, cz doc wants him to built up his stamina! yea.a i noe, i was there too n i'm the 1 who ask doc ! but doc din say he can eat anything !

AIHZ... wat can i do now !!! wat can i do !!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Its a good news for me today. My dad has change wad ! He change to usual wad although the wad oso consider critical wad but at least better den the HDW.

This wad is not as strict as the wad. Strict i mean is They dont allow more den 1 person to go in. But, in this wad, they can allow how many people u want. As long as u din make so much noise, den they will not kick u out of the WAD.

Anyway, my dad is getting better n better. He's not on drip. But, he still need to inject the antibiotic , for around 1 week. Although there's still got jaundice in his body, but he's getting fine. He can walk n talk loudly. He can even joke with us. He summore request to my mom to bring the laptop to there , for him to watch movie, to cure his 'boredness'.

He can bring anything into dis wad, but well, of coz not those illegal thingy. Its really nice for me n i feel a bit release when i c my dad getting ok.

My dad is getting better n better ! its a good sign for me n my family ! especially my mom ! hehe... well, there's only things i always do after class nowadays, which is drive to hospital asap, just to c my dad ! Nurse dont allow 2 person to visit 1 patient. but i sneak in ! lolz. funny isnt it?

yesterday me n my bro get scold by a bitch, ok she's an old bitch ! she yell at us in the HWD ( high dependency Ward ). aiyo i noe cannot b more den 1 vistitor inside the ward, but den , she dont has to yelled at us rite ? so 2 of us kena paksa 'halau' fr the ward ! zzzzzzzzzzzzzz. she's freaking damn old bitch la.

Den, today, i sneak in again n successful ! although the old bitch is overthere ! in her fucking cold room. ok ! i rush to hospital n i get lost in the road. zzz den my dad saw me nia, hold my hand tight tight until i feel pain. I feel warm, n wanna cry but i hold myelf la.I saw my dad 's eyes is getting red , means he's almost cry out when he c me ! touch rite ?! first time i c my dad like dat !

Before i reach hospital, mom told me, dad was asking where r we , when we're not there around the time 1 to 2. cz usually we were there, but today cz we'ce school, so we hv to go !

So, me n dad's conversation for today is kinda alots ! more den usual ! i tell him everything wat happened to me, yesterday n today ! my frenz, my sista, n a lots more ~~~~

n yea, before i left the ward, i kiss my dad's cheek. to let him noe, i still love him !!! hehe. i will try my best to graduate asap, to help him !! so he got the time to enjoy his life with his darling, who is my mom !!!!

Dad , u must recover !!! until change to usual ward, den come back home, n stay with us , we love u !!!